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[Music] i'm feeling inspired today i was actually going to shoot a different episode a more down to earth practical episode which is going to get pushed off until next week because i was in the shower and i was contemplating the nature of god and love and forgiveness and just this this profound chain of logic came to me that inspired me that i want to share with you so we're going to talk about and explain why god forgives devilry and evil this is a this is a topic that perplexes many religious people and and even non-religious people honestly because the one of the biggest i think obstacles that even non-religious people have towards the notion of god is this idea of like if there is a god how did god design such a terrible world uh why is there so much evil in the world and i've talked about this previously and i've talked about what is devilry in my episode what is devil regal check that one out it's kind of important to know when i use that term what i really mean so um i'm going to be speaking here both figuratively and literally at the same time it's a little tricky but i want to take you through the logic here so god forgives all devilry what does that mean what do i mean by devilry well if you watched my episode about what is the devil i use it sort of tongue-in-cheek don't take it too seriously i'm not telling you that there is a satan you know with horns and a pitchfork uh somewhere in hell i i i'm i'm speaking more of like the human devilry that we see all around us all of the shenanigans going around in politics and around the world the wars the violence the theft the exploitation the abuse the manipulation the enslavement of others and this sorts of stuff right all the stuff you don't like when it's happening to you and all the stuff you love when you're doing it to others when it serves you see when you're on the receiving end of it you don't like it but when you're on the benefiting end of it and especially when you don't have to think about how you got the benefits in other words you do the devilry without yourself being conscious that you're doing devilry then you love it because you love the fruits of the devilry but you don't like perceiving yourself as the devil so this is the sort of game that the ego mind plays is that it tries to act like the devil while denying that it's doing so and then of course when you point that out to it it doubles down on its denial and it denies that it's in denial that it's doing this but anyways so uh you might think that like well god should punish this stuff and this is very counter-intuitive is that what you discover is that god doesn't punish anything not even the worst atrocities that you could imagine god doesn't punish these things god is not even upset or disturbed by these things it's just it just it doesn't it doesn't affect god why is that well the short answer is god is love but there's more dots we got to connect here for this to make sense but before we do that let me just lay out a disclaimer here that what i'm talking about i'm speaking from direct experience from my own conscious experiences that i've had very high levels of consciousness super human levels of consciousness so i'm not here promoting any kind of religious dogma to you um i'm not trying to get you to believe this stuff i am going to lay out the logic for you to help you to make sense of this in your own mind as you go about doing your spiritual practices and eventually hopefully becoming conscious of these things for yourself not because i said so but because it's what is the case and then i'm just giving you some analysis here and helping you to connect some dots in your mind clear up certain confusions all right so this is not dogma or ideology don't make it such but anyways the logic is this see god is everything god is infinite consciousness truly infinite consciousness what infinite means that has no bounds that means it has no limits upon it that means it extends in all directions in all dimensions not just spatially but in every possible way that you could imagine so if god is everything absolutely everything then god is those things that you would call devilry whatever you think devilry is what however you define it you want to define slavery or genocide or sexual abuse or the abuse of children or whatever you want to define as you know the epitome the pinnacle of devilry and then minor forms of devilry like lying and cheating and stealing and tax evasion whatever you know um maybe you think war is is the ultimate form of devilry genocide something like that so god is all those things if god is everything see that's the logic of it the logic of it is oneness that's the fundamental principle behind the entire universe it's it's oneness everything is connected to everything else and the only way anything can exist is if everything exists so see as a finite human consciousness here in this little dream that you've been living in it seems to you that well life is this certain way and it has to be this way and it can't be some other way because of all the limits that are placed upon you physically materially and so forth there are limits upon what your body can do what your mind can think and what you can even imagine but this is all finite consciousness god is infinite consciousness infinite conscious means it's completely unlimited as to what it can imagine it can literally imagine anything so literally god can't imagine a physical material devil if he wanted to i say he really it's an it or it's you but a god can imagine because it's infinite consciousness can imagine anything so it can imagine war genocide abuse exploitation slavery it can imagine physical demons and devils uh an infinite number of different kinds just like in your dreams you know when you're sleeping at night fly proof life lying around um when you're sleeping at night there's no limit to the kind of horrors that you can imagine i mean you've had nightmares think back to the kind of nightmares you've had think of the diversity of all the crazy nightmares that you've concocted with your mind well see god is that taken to infinity so if god wants to god infinite consciousness can can construct its own physical material hell if it wants to because it's infinite creative potential infinite creative potential means that you can imagine atoms molecules cells creatures aliens angels devils it can dream all sorts of nightmares it can dream bliss realms of of beautiful sex and food and whatever other material pleasures you desire money vacations anything the universe can literally imagine anything because it is pure infinite imagination it's everything and the only reason anything can exist is because everything exists within infinite consciousness it's like an infinite possibility space so now think about this imagine you are this infinite possibility space and of course now here's a further little wrinkle to the logic if we're talking about oneness and everything see if if god is everything that means what about you and if god is infinite consciousness what about your consciousness you're conscious right now you're a thing right now so a thing is part of everything that means you're god there can't be a god separate from a you because god is the creator of everything and the way it creates things is not by sitting outside of it and then creating it and being separate from it but by actually incarnating as it so it's incarnated as you right now listening to me imagining this whole conversation so this is what god is imagining right now so you are it but it is also everything else and there's no limit as to how it can be it can be any way it wants right now just happens to choose to be the way that it is right now if it wasn't doing that then you couldn't exist as a human you would be something else you'd be a kangaroo or a devil or an angel or whatever else it was thinking of or if it was thinking of nothing you'd be nothing or if it was thinking of everything you'd be everything you see this this would present you with an existential crisis you would think that you're losing your mind you think you're going crazy you would probably go to a psych ward and then there the the uh the shrinks would evaluate you and uh if you were honest with them about what you were experiencing what you were conscious of that you were everything uh they would put you on psycho antipsychotic medication that's what they would do because they don't understand how radical and serious this is you know we're not just talking about human psychology here we're talking about the origin of all of existence all of creation so the reason god can create anything is because it is everything so the way it creates is just by imagining whatever it wants right now that doesn't mean that your little human ego can imagine whatever it wants that's not what i'm saying your little human ego is something it's imagining that's a limit it's placing upon itself right so you see infinite consciousness constrains itself into something finite which resembles your human experience and it does feel very finite it is literally finite because it's imagining itself to be finite but it doesn't have to always be that way it could unimagine it the next moment now will it well the problem again is that if it did you would lose your mind so it doesn't for your own sake but also it can and then people do lose their minds people lose their minds just throughout the course of life extreme stress people have psychotic episodes schizophrenic episodes whatever or people take psychedelics and lose their mind people do spiritual practice and lose their mind through meditation or yoga or self-inquiry so there's a lot of ways to lose your mind and it's it can be it can also go wrong it does it's not always good to lose your mind you can lose your mind in a controlled healthy manner and you can lose your mind in an uncontrolled unhealthy dysfunctional suicidal manner so you gotta be careful about how you go about losing your mind i don't recommend the dysfunctional path because that can cause a lot of damage to yourself and others and we've talked about that in the past but anyways so the logic of it here is that the only way you can have anything is if you have everything so when you have everything that means you are everything consciousness is everything god is everything if god is everything literally then how can god be upset at anything how can god judge or condemn anything because if god was judging or condemning anything it would be judging and condemning its own nature in other words another way to put it is truth since god is truth since there is nothing outside of god because it's infinity and it's everything that there could ever possibly be that is the truth this absolute truth if it didn't forgive itself and accept all parts of itself that means it would be in conflict with itself that means it would be denying aspects of itself that means truth would not be fully accepting itself as truth truth would be at war with itself and sure enough this does happen within the human realm of limited consciousness but it can't actually happen at the highest levels of consciousness at infinite consciousness it can't happen at infinite consciousness consciousness is too conscious to deny or resist any parts of itself and when this happens the idea that god would condemn judge hate demonize or not forgive any aspect of itself is ludicrous it's tantamount to insanity you'd have to literally be insane to judge your own self because the infant itself the self that is everything is the only thing that exists it's the only thing that can be just by virtue of the fact that it's everything and you can't have more than everything everything is everything it also includes nothing so when you've got absolute everything and you're fully conscious of it as that then how can you judge it how can you not love it and here is where love and truth become synonymous and actually identical because when you're fully conscious of what you are and what the truth is everything simultaneously what comes with that is a full acceptance and surrender to what is and that is simply love unlimited love for your own self as creation as the act and process of creation as the creator and the created and also another element of logic we should bring in here to this equation is uh is selflessness so god is selfless the reason god is selfless with a capital s is because a self with a lower case s like a human self yourself as a this by by a biographical biological self you think you are that self see that's a finite form within consciousness that's a finite thing consciousness is imagining so if god had a self it couldn't be everything because by definition a lowercase s self is a finite thing so see if you think that you're john or sarah that's your little finite self and then you think i'm leo this you think this is another separate finite self that we're separate selves and see for you to be john or sarah you can't be leo you have to exclude leo from that and for me to think of myself as leo i have to exclude john and sarah from my little self you see so if you're getting stuck to one finite self that means you can't recognize yourself as the infinite self because the finite gets in the way of the infinite you see this is a very existential sort of trade-off that we have here between this we have this tug of war between the finite and the infinite um but god in its highest form is completely selfless because it needs to have the infinite freedom to incarnate as any self to be able to imagine itself as being any self not just a human self but a kangaroo self a koala self an alien self an angel self a devil self whatever it wants it needs the freedom to be able to imagine itself as absolutely everything and so since god is selfless that means it can take on the form of an infinite number of different selves it's all possible cells in other words it's the superposition of all possible cells it's the source of all selves it's the empty self that is dreaming itself as a specific finite self so now think about why you would not forgive something think about something that might happen in reality that you would not forgive you might take a stance and say i will never forgive some person for doing some x amount of evil if they reach that level of evil like i will never forgive hitler i will never forgive stalin i will never forgive that person who molested me when i was young i will never forgive my ex-boyfriend for cheating on me i will never forgive my wife for leaving me i will never forgive my father for abandoning me i will never forgive my mother for hitting me you know fill in the blank what that is for you and so what i want you to notice is that the reason you're struggling to forgive that is because as a finite self you have a survival agenda and survival biases which are informing your entire mind and perceptual system so literally the way you look at the world is informed by what you need to survive in the world and so those things that you can't forgive notice the only reason you can't forgive them is because of how threatening they are to your survival as a finite self survival as a finite self so actually the reason that you're not able to forgive is because you're selfish but you see god doesn't have this problem because god in its most infinite form when it has no attachments to being a specific human self what does it care think about it if you had no attachment to survival if you didn't need to make money if you didn't care about how your children felt if you didn't care about your job if you didn't care about achieving anything specific in life if you didn't even care about whether you lived or died if you didn't care about whether you're experiencing pleasure or pain or if you're suffering or not imagine if you were so selfless and so unbiased in your consciousness that you literally did not distinguish between these things and you didn't care which one of them was happening to you in that case would there be anything you wouldn't forgive no you see so when you're infinitely selfless you automatically forgive everything because you're simply accepting of everything you're not attached to having experience go one way you're not attached to your dream being dreamt in a particular direction that attachment which your little finite self has so you want your dream to unfold in a particular way like you believe that in the future you want to get married and have children and you want your children to do well you want them to have good health you want to go to good schools you want to eat them to eat good food you also have aspirations for yourself you want a certain career you want a certain life purpose you want a certain amount of wealth in your life and certain material luxuries and comforts and you want to play video games and you want to be entertained and you want to laugh and smile and have fun and you don't want pain and you don't want cancer and you don't want heart disease and you don't want to be obese and there's all these things you don't want and then there's all these things you do want this is what sets up the whole problem because when you're attached to having things go certain a certain way and not have not having them go a different way these biases and attachments now commit you to hating certain aspects of reality that hatred is the mechanism you use to avoid those things and to guide your dream to shape your dream to have it unfold in a particular direction that would be self-serving and notice all the stuff you want is completely self-serving why do you want it because it's serving your agenda and it's making you feel good that's ultimately why you want anything even if you want to uh murder people the reason you want to murder people is because it's going to make you feel good in some twisted sense that is what's going on inside the mind of a murderer otherwise they wouldn't be doing it they take a certain twisted delight that the suffering they inflict on others actually makes them happy and that can happen when you're in a very low state of consciousness you know a being in a low state of consciousness takes pleasure in the suffering of others we'll actually take pleasure in torturing an animal or will take pleasure in his or her political opponent being defeated and you've experienced that maybe you don't experience pleasure from torturing animals and you think that's sick and twisted and you would never go down that dark road but you still take pleasure you take pleasure when your enemies do badly you take pleasure when your political opponents lose in an election you take pleasure when there's a debate going on between two sides and your sides scoring points against the other side and the other side seems to be crumbling and getting debunked or embarrassed you watch those youtube videos where either liberals or conservatives are getting dunked upon and shown to be idiots and you take pleasure in that depending on which side you're on what attachments and biases you have see if you're a soldier at war you take pleasure in the enemies that you're fighting being killed you actually smile when you shoot an enemy in the in the face and your commanders smile and congratulate you for doing that see now of course you have a whole story about how it's important that you do this for the safety of the nation the motherland and for defending children i mean in your mind you justify it in such a way that the smile seems totally valid and legitimate um but nevertheless you take delight in these things uh that's because you have a certain agenda as a self as a finite self but see as the infinite self god has no agenda other than the creation of everything furthermore the reason god forgives everything doesn't punish anything is because god is the very thing that you hate or judge or criticize god is conscious of that but you as a finite self are not conscious of that you see so when you're a soldier and you're shooting somebody in the face and then you smile and you're happy the only reason you can smile and be happy about that is because you've separated yourself from the one you shot and you're not conscious of the one that you shot as being you but this goes way deeper than that because like see if you hear a news story about some person who was torturing animals you're gonna hear that and your natural instinct is gonna be say oh my god that sick bastard how could he we should lock him up he's evil that's from the human point of view but from god's point of view from the point of view of everything see god can't judge that because god is literally doing that god is conscious that god is doing that god is a torturer of animals god is a murderer god is a rapist god is hitler god is stalin god is terrorism god is every terrorist who ever lived and god is every law enforcement officer who has combated terrorism god is both the slave and the slave owner at the same time see as a human self you're not conscious of that because you just believe that you're either a slave or a slave owner you're not both at the same time or you believe that you're either pro-animal rights or you're anti-animal rights or whatever you're not both the same time or you believe that you're um that you know you're pro-terrorism or anti-terrorism you're not both at the same time but when you're conscious that you're everything what does that mean that means you're everything everything no exclusions no exceptions everything and so this is the difficulty for humans and for finite self is that when a when a human self hears that oh you're everything that sounds kind of nice and uh hippie dippy sounds kind of new-agey and cool until you actually start to go through the ramifications of what that means and then you you realize that this is this is extremely radical and very threatening because all of a sudden you're a chair you're a table your that corporation that you hate think of a corporation that you hate just absolutely hate you are that uh you're every person that you hate not only are you the people that might be bad like criminals and terrorists and stuff but um you're even at a more deeper profound level you're the abstractions of evil itself so think of not a specific terrorist think of just terrorism in the abstract the idea of terrorizing people and getting joy out of it think of that as a pure abstraction you are that god is that but see as a human finite self you've disowned that aspect of your consciousness and of the universe and you did it for good reason totally understandable why you did it because if you didn't do it then how would we structure society you see so for the structuring of society for survival to occur you have to do this and see god is conscious of this whereas you're not conscious of this god is conscious that survival is completely necessary at the level of finite consciousness so see god is so infinitely conscious that it can't even judge you for doing the survival activities that you got to do to survive in the situation that you're in which is why god forgives everybody because all everybody is doing all the evil and devilry in the world is just nothing other than people trying to survive struggling to survive in different ways and the more twisted circumstances the more limited of a circumstance a person find themselves in the harder they have to fight to survive otherwise they're going to die and so when people find themselves in very twisted virtually impossible survival situations they turn into monsters this is how a monster is created for example a little child innocent little child is born and then gets abused every day and molested by his parents who are drug addicts let's say um and alcoholics and this child is just constantly criticized and judged and physically abused and verbally abused and emotionally manipulated for years and then is there any surprise that this child will become a a murderer or a mass shooter or a terrorist or something in the future when when he's an adult no that's just his coping mechanism for the years of abuse that he's received you see so you as a finite human just trying to survive in the world and be happy you don't care about that you don't care about the truth you just care about being happy but god god has no attachments and it's infinitely conscious so it's completely conscious of why this mass shooter or murderer turned out the way he did because of you know the abuse that was received and the virtually impossible survival situation that this that this little kid was placed into um which which ended up warping his psyche in his mind you see and god isn't just conscious that that happened god is that god created that you see so the reason god can't judge you and god has to forgive you is because god is you and god created you no matter how evil you are it doesn't matter what you do in life no matter how many people you kill or abuse or exploit or manipulate or cheat or steal or whatever it doesn't matter because while you will lose conscious of the fact that you're god creating that god will never lose consciousness of that god will always be conscious that not only is that a part of god but that god consciously created this because god is infinite consciousness god is infinite creative potential so that possibility is just one possibility out of an infinite number of possibilities of everything that god is and god is completely conscious of that and completely accepts that not only does it accept that it loves it because it doesn't distinguish between any aspect or part of itself because it has no self and has no biases if you had no self if you had no survival agenda you would have absolutely no biases to such a radical degree that the the lack of bias would not just be at the psychological level like oh well you might say god likes all flavors of ice cream equally god doesn't distinguish between chocolate and vanilla and strawberry and coconut and whatever you know mint chocolate mint chip whatever uh your favorite ice cream is see you as a human have a favorite and there are certain ones that you might think are gross that you would never want to eat again after you try it once but see god doesn't care god literally likes every ice cream flavor equally but it's even more radical than that because see in your mind you actually think there is a difference between chocolate ice cream vanilla ice cream strawberry ice cream coconut ice cream you actually think that there's a physical material difference between these ice cream flavors god is so infinitely conscious that god not only lacks psychological biases and even deeper than that there's sort of the biological level where like you might you might think that well all the ice cream flavors okay maybe you could imagine a human opens their minds so so radically that he or she can appreciate all the ice cream flavors but then if i give you a bowl of [ __ ] with all the ice cream flavors and then i ask you well okay so you can handle all the different ice cream flavors but if i just give you a bowl of pure [ __ ] it's not ice cream are you still gonna be able to enjoy it as much as all the different ice creams you like see i would be pushing i would be pushing the limits of how open your consciousness is and you'd probably say no you know leo that's not ice cream that's [ __ ] i'm not going to eat [ __ ] and even if i am i'm not going to enjoy it as much as ice cream that's silly there's a physical difference between the two but what i'm telling you is that god is so conscious that it wouldn't even distinguish between the ice cream and the [ __ ] and then but then we take it to the next level is that we say this goes so deep you become so conscious that literally the physical difference between the different flavors of ice cream starts to dissolve such that the difference between chocolate and vanilla actually see a material a scientist would tell you well there's a physical difference between the two they have different atoms different molecules they hit the you know taste bud receptors differently and your nervous system interprets them differently and maybe one of them is good for you one of them is bad for you maybe you're allergic to chocolate and then it's bad for you see this is what a scientist would tell you the science is not conscious enough if you become more conscious than that you become super humanly conscious which you'll start to realize that literally the physical difference between the actual atoms of the chocolate and the vanilla ice cream will itself start to dissolve such that you literally will not be able to tell the two apart and it'll go so radically deep that even when you give you i give you a ball of [ __ ] and you compare that bowl of [ __ ] to vanilla ice cream you will cease being able to make the distinction between [ __ ] and ice cream because the difference between [ __ ] and ice cream you think it's a physical difference but that physical difference is itself something you're imagining so there is no such difference at a high enough level of consciousness and then if you take this to its ultimate extreme is of course that if i uh if i give you a bowl of the most delicious vanilla ice cream you've ever had on the one hand and then i give you torture of children on the other hand an actual child being physically tortured and i ask you is there a difference between these two things you are going to say of course there is and god from its highest perspective is going to say of course there isn't they're all just part of infinite consciousness such that there's literally no difference so now imagine if you had that level of consciousness at that level of consciousness you're not human anymore because human is a distinction you're making within consciousness you're saying i'm human and that's a table over there see that distinction has to dissolve um at that level of consciousness and so from that level of consciousness what is there to judge what is there to criticize what is there to condemn or to demonize is there anything wrong at that level of consciousness you can't there can't be anything wrong because you've literally transcended the distinction between right and wrong good and bad pain and pleasure imagine for example being so conscious that there is no difference in your consciousness between an orgasm and being hit in the face with a baseball bat see you as a human it's difficult for you to imagine the blurring of that distinction for you the distinction is so stark so physical so inescapable that it would seem like leo you'd have to lose your mind to think that there's no difference between these two things and you're right you would have to lose your mind you'd have to lose that mind that ego mind that is attached to the sensations of an orgasm versus the sensations of being hit in the face with a baseball bat after all ask yourself what's the difference why is it that you enjoy orgasms but you don't enjoy being hit in the face if you think very objectively about it what you'll realize is that there's actually no good reason the reasons are all purely selfish the reason i like orgasms is because it makes me feel good and that's selfish and that's part of my survival function and getting hit in the face is the opposite of that that's why i don't like it but when you become conscious enough this ceases to matter because you also transcend the distinction between life and death at that level of consciousness there is no difference between life and death they merge into a single unity of pure infinite consciousness so when this happens you're so conscious that you realize that consciousness is nothing but pure love that's what love is you see there's an extremely profound metaphysics behind love a love is not merely a human emotion the human emotions of love that is love but that's like the tip of a spear you've only felt the tip and what i'm talking about is the entire spear when you see the entire sphere of love which you realize that here's a technical metaphysical definition of love for you this is so profound it might take you 20 years to understand what i'm about to say ready love is the realization that there is no difference between anything love is a complete absence of all bias that's really what love is at the ontological level the deepest love you're ever going to feel the deepest love that it's possible to feel is when you become so conscious that you become conscious that the difference between absolutely everything is imaginary and when you realize that what you're left with is infinite love because if there is no difference between anything that means everything is equally great now you say oh leo but does that also mean that everything's equally bad no it doesn't because bad is a judgment your ego self is making that's a bias you have when you remove all biases the end result of that is not neutrality it's actually infinite love it's infinite truth it's infinite self-acceptance the only reason you're rejecting parts of reality is because you're scared of the suffering of experiencing suffering but when you bite that bullet and you're willing to experience anything when you stop having any biases whatsoever what you're left with is infinite love what this means is practically you're willing to experience everything and the reason you're willing to experience everything is because you realize you are everything and you stop cherry-picking experiences or dreams see when you're infinitely conscious you're so conscious you're literally untouchable you're immortal at that level of consciousness at that level of consciousness you no longer care about excluding any experiences from your consciousness because you realize the entire purpose of existence is to embrace yourself when you're that conscious you're too conscious to be able to resist your own self and then what you realize is that the game of reality not just the game of life but even going beyond life but the game of reality itself the game of existence is a deeper and deeper ever deeper infinite embrace of one's self as all of existence and so what happens is that you give up more and more of yourself to embrace more and more of yourself you give up more of your finite self and more of your biases to be able to embrace more of your infinite self and to realize more of your infinite self but as you give that up you're literally giving up your humanity you're giving up life you're giving a pleasure you're giving up all of your goals all of your dreams you're giving up all of that for what for everything see you're giving up something for everything you're giving up the finite for the infinite with the ultimate realization that if you continue down this road what's going to happen is that you're going to completely lose all of your attachments and even your physical form you're going to become so infinitely conscious that you will embrace literally every possible dream that can be dreamt you will become murder and torture and rape and genocide and of course all the good stuff too and you're going to become this at ever deeper and deeper and deeper and more profound levels and as you're doing this all that's happening is you're just surrendering to the truth of what you are it's not that you're trying to create evil in the world it's just you realize that evil is just a part of everything and the way you're going to overcome the evil is not by going around it but by going through it so completely that you will you will embody it to such a deep degree that you won't be able to hate it anymore you see that which you hate you are resisting embodying and so you're going through your life judging people and then see every judgment you make of others every condemnation criticism you make now you yourself are forced into this sort of dualistic game where it's like well if that person abuses animals that means i can't abuse animals too because if i do that makes me a hypocrite that also makes me evil and you know that person does a mass shooting that means if i shoot people that makes me evil and so i can't do that and so now you're living with all these limitations and you say well leo but if we just let everybody do anything they want is that going to create chaos yes it might destroy civilization see this is why civilization like i said in the past civilization is a house of cards built on lies it has to be because it's not true for civilization to to be the way that it is it has to not be other ways see civilization's very limited finite sort of pyramid scheme and in so doing it marginalized a lot of people throughout history it abuses a lot of people so the paradox of constructing a civilization that as you're constructing a finite civilization all of the trade-offs and limitations of being finite become very starkly apparent this is why every civilization throughout all of human history has has always been evil so ironically as you're trying to build your your you know your beautiful civilization you're commit committing a lot of evil in the in the process so ironically see evil is the most counterintuitive thing you think that by resisting by demonizing by hating and judging and criticizing evil that you're gonna create a world with no evil it's not gonna happen and actually the more you push evil away the more it boomerangs back on you so see you're not conscious enough to realize that whereas god is therefore god realizes the only solution to the problem of evil is not to fight evil see if god was doing that god would be stupid the solution to evil is to realize that it's you it's nothing other than you it's something you're imagining it's something you're doing it's not separate from you so rather than trying to disown it the counter-intuitive move is to own it own evil own it so deeply that you stop having a problem with it own it so deeply that it kills you i mean in the egoic sense so deeply that it kills you in the egoic sense and then you cease resisting what do you cease resisting you cease resisting pain suffering and death you cease resisting these things and then in this way you've transcended death without physically harming your body although really to transcend death see you can't truly transcend death if you're still worried about maintaining the safety of your body now i still want you to to care about the safety of your body and treat your body well and so forth but to truly transcend death do you understand what that means it can't just be like at an intellectual level where it's like oh yeah i've transcended death but then i still care about my body like no to truly transcend death means that if you die tomorrow you're okay with it and if you're not okay with it then you haven't transcended that it's a very radical thing to transcend death very few people have done it it can be done but the cost of doing it is so outrageously high that almost nobody will do it and i'm not claiming that i have done it at least not permanently i've been in states where it's obvious to me that it's possible um and in that state death is transcended but then um if your state becomes finite again you're gonna be you're gonna be afraid to die so i mean really the only way to transcend death is is to be in a in a permanent infinite state of consciousness which is not easy to do so you see the short of it is that since god is everything since god imagines everything since god creates everything since god incarnates as everything since god is truth since god is love since god is one it has no option but to forgive you because really when god forgives you god is just for all god is doing in that moment it's not really even forgiving you all god is doing is god is just conscious that it's you god is conscious that it is the sin that you feel you committed another way to put it is uh sort of in a poetic way god created the devil god is conscious that god created the devil why why would god create the devil because god is everything literally the images of the devil in your mind are being constructed and held by god's consciousness right now as i'm speaking the idea of a devil the pictures you've seen of the red sort of cartoon caricature of a red devil with pointy tail and ears and horns and a pitchfork that image where do you think that image came from that came from infinite consciousness so i said earlier that i'm going to be speaking here metaphorically and literally at the same time well this is what i meant is that god literally imagines the physical devil as you've seen it rendered in books in movies in cartoons wherever you've seen it in your own mind's imagination in your nightmares if you had nightmares where you met the devil um so literally god imagined all those but then also figuratively speaking all the devilish stuff that humans have ever done throughout human history god has also imagined and done all those things god is all those things and god loves all those things because god is too conscious to separate itself from those things see to hate those things to criticize those things to judge those things to condemn those things you have to fool yourself into thinking you are not those things you have to erect a barrier between those things and you and that's only possible if your consciousness has a a neck restraint around it when you remove all the restraints from consciousness it's too conscious of its own self to be able to judge or criticize itself in any way because it realizes its own perfection see you as a finite human self you believe perfection is some sort of finite dream that personally suits you so your version of perfection is something along the lines of having the most beautiful sexual partners pleasing you sexually in your favorite ways eating the best food that you personally love looking physically however you personally want to look living in the kind of house that you personally is your dream house to live in living in a part of the world that's the dream part of the world to live in see that's your version of perfection but this is the devil's version of perfection what you're imagining there is a very finite form of perfection which isn't absolute perfection because it's excluding so much see like if you say that your version of perfection is like living on a beach in hawaii in a 10 million dollar mansion on the beachfront with a beautiful view of the sunset and and coconut trees above you and the perfect weather and no work and just uh supermodels sexually gratifying you day and night new ones every day every night and the best food you know sushi all the time or whatever you like to eat caviar you know filet mignon like just to your little human mind that seems like that's such a good thing but that's just because your conscience is so limited your imagination is so small and you're so extremely biased in your appreciation of reality see if you were truly conscious what you would realize is just how cripplingly shallow that version of perfection is because see if you're eating sushi or filet mignon think of all the other foods you're not eating if you're in hawaii you think of all the other beautiful places in the world you're not at you're pretending as though hawaii is is the most beautiful place in the world it's not no one place in the world is the best no one food is the best no one's sexual partner is the best not even a hundred different sexual partners is the best not even the experience of having a hundred back-to-back orgasms is the best not even loving your your you know your five children is the best you think these things are the best they're not the best the best from the most objective point of view of infinite consciousness is infinity the best is everything no one part of infinity can be the best because one finite part of infinity is going to exclude another finite part of infinity and when you're doing that you're missing the absolute hole you're never in wholeness when you're clinging to one thing no matter how good it is when your conscience is low you're okay with that you're happy with that and that is your version of heaven and bliss but when your consciousness is infinitely high you can't be okay with that because it's too limiting for you imagine being so conscious that you don't want to just live in a house in hawaii you want to live in a house everywhere on the on the planet and you don't just want to live in the luxury houses you want to live in every house literally every [ __ ] house on the planet this includes the slums of india the slums of brazil the slums in the middle east the ghettos all around the world imagine you're so conscious that you you want that but you also want the mansions too you're gonna get it all so you're not losing anything that's the thing see you as a finite human self you think you're losing something by living in islam because the slum excludes the possibility of living in a mansion and living in a mansion excludes the possibility of living in islam but to god there's no exclusion it's all being included in an infinite dream so it's going to include living in every house on the entire planet um it's going to be but it's also going to include being every every physical type of human see for you there's like some sort of perfect ideal image that you have how you might want to be like if if we allowed you to do free plastic surgery with no pain and no repercussions you would redesign your face and your body to look totally different and you would think okay now i've reached my perfect form through genetic engineering and whatever plastic surgery um and you think you'd be happy that would be perfection for you is to reach that perfect form with the perfect hair the perfect eye color the perfect facial symmetry all of that and you think that'd be perfection but that's not perfection true absolute perfection if you were infinitely conscious would be that you would incarnate and take the form of every human that has ever lived both the beautiful ones and the ugliest ones the deformed ones the crippled ones all of them and you see and we just take this we just keep doing this and doing this and doing this we keep including more and more and more into consciousness until there's nothing left until we reach infinity this means that see you think that well like of all the different creatures you could be born into in this on this on this one planet that we're on you know let's say you had a conscious choice as to what you're going to incarnate into before you were born you could be a human you could be a giraffe a kangaroo an ostrich a lion an eagle a killer whale uh a a mouse an ant a stink bug uh a vampire bat you know like of all the different stuff you could incarnate as which one would be the best for you you'd probably say something like human but you see how biased that is or maybe you say leo i want to be a bald eagle flying high in the sky and you think that that's your version of perfection or you want to be a killer whale you know apex predator or something but see your imagination is still far too limited why limit yourself to any one of those when you can be them all you see this is this is how god thinks this is how a very very conscious entity thinks the difficulty is that this level of consciousness is so far above how most humans operate that it seems fantastical it seems crazy it seems just like fairy tales like i imagine some of you gonna listen to this and you're gonna think this is just totally nuts but you see that's just from your little perspective from god's perspective what you're doing and your attachment to your little small world that is what's truly nuts look at how narrow and limited your experience of life is look at how much you suffer and fear and hate and judge others and yourself you don't even like your own self you can't you can't even like your own physical appearance you're going to spend the next 50 years of your life hating yourself hating your physical exp appearance hating where you live hating where you work hating what's happening to you hating the people who you're in relationship with frustrated petty and bitter and miserable this is the reality of human life this is what you cling to so dearly this is what you call sanity and then when i talk about infinite love and infinite acceptance and all this you think that's crazy talk you see it's all just a matter of perspective if your conscious is very narrow then what you want out of life is very narrow if your consciousness is infinitely expansive then what you want out of life is absolutely everything and see god is so conscious that god is even conscious that you can't help yourself in your little narrow perspective so god fully understands that when you're locked into a little narrow perspective and all that you want is a little bit of sex and you want a little bit of sushi and you want a little bit of filet mignon and you want a little bit of hawaii and you want a little bit of a 10 million dollar mansion and you want a little bit of more money in your bank account god fully understands why you want those things and why you can't tolerate anything more than that and god forgives you for that selfishness because you see god is so selfless that it is not bothered by selfishness god is so loving god is not bothered by hate god is so non-judgmental god is not bothered by your judgments god is so good god is not bothered by bad that's the power of being completely selfless if you're completely selfless you're completely unbiased nothing can bother you but god is also conscious that you in your finite form aren't that conscious therefore it's conscious that stuff does bother you as a human so it's not like god is sitting above you and saying ah ha ha look look at those stupid humans look how petty they are they're just a bunch of idiots no see god is too conscious for that god is so conscious that god realizes that it is the very ignorance and unconsciousness and selfishness that you are right now so god is so conscious that it's conscious of its own unconsciousness and it accepts that too see right now god is conscious as i sit here that it is speaking through me and that even though this finite incarnation called leo has become conscious of god's full consciousness god is also conscious that in this present moment this leo incarnation is not infinitely conscious and that's something the leo incarnation has to accept and learn to love as part of its incarnation and so there's a very deep compassion there there's a deep compassion for the um the fact that finite conscious entities are stuck within the finite domain it's sort of like god sees all these people dreaming nightmares and god can't stop it from happening because that's what god is god is everything you might say well leo why doesn't god just snap his fingers and stop it because god is everything if god snapped his fingers and stopped all the nightmares god would be denying all the nightmares god can't do that because it's too conscious and is too loving such that it loves the nightmares too see when you're asking god to snap its fingers and to remove something from existence that is not god's problem that's your problem that's a problem your perception that's your biases creeping in and asking for reality to be changed to suit you but to change reality to suit a finite consciousness would be the very definition of devilry see in asking god to do that you're actually asking god to be a devil if reality was suited to the human psyche reality would be evil so reality can't be suited to the to the psyche of any human or any one conscious entity god's job is to ensure that reality is not monopolized by any one entity it has to be for the good of all not for the good of some and it's precisely because of this that god won't snap his fingers and remove the nightmares it's actually you who must accept the nightmares and surrender to them and if you fully do they will cease being nightmares the nightmares are there to test your love think of it as like love is like the ultimate test of your consciousness it's the ultimate honest signal how much of reality can you love how much of consciousness can you love can you love all of it as a human no you can't because you'd be dead but you can increase your capacity to love more and more of it or at least to understand it conceptually um and and so the tests can get harder and harder and harder the bar can rise infinitely high it can rise so high it'll kill you as a human um uh but most humans for them the bar is very very low as far as what they can love and then the whole point of existence is to raise that bar higher and higher and higher that's kind of like the purpose the existential purpose behind life is to expand your capacity to love until you reach infinity and then you can reach god and then you can come back down and start the whole thing all over again but you see the nightmares are the true tests of your love because you have to be extremely conscious to be able to love a nightmare and so life is just about things constantly rubbing you the wrong way and as they rub you the wrong way they cause suffering and pain and then eventually you get sick and tired of the suffering and the pain and the resistance and you start to surrender yourself to this thing to that thing and as you do that that expands your psyche part of your ego dies that expands your psyche and then this makes you more godlike more admirable as a conscious entity it makes you more conscious and makes you more loving and makes you more selfless and so things rub you keep rubbing you keep rubbing you keep rubbing you the wrong way and if if you're growing and living life properly then lessen love less stuff should rub you the wrong way in life but see a lot of people they fall to the trap of of actually erecting barriers to sort of create a walled garden that they live inside of where nothing rubs them the wrong way not because they're able to surrender to it and accept it and let it go of the resistance but because simply they prevent that stuff from entering into the conscious at all so it's a very sneaky egoic tactic and this is what a lot of what wealthy people do this is this is a lot of what people's fantasies and even poor people have these fantasies about wealth they think that they can use wealth to create a walled garden and in practice a lot of wealthy people do this they live in a gated community with security guards where they never have to experience theft rape murder they live in parts of the world which are isolated entire neighborhoods not just a gated community but that gated community is inside of like the best neighborhood in the country where there's no homeless people again there's no theft there's no murder or it's very low there's no dilapidated buildings there's no slums there's no ghettos there's no bad roads they're all nicely paved there's no bad schools they're all private elite schools they send their kids to elite universities which have billions of dollars of you know endowments and donations and the best buildings and the best teachers and the best food and the best this they go to the best supermarkets so they completely isolate themselves on yachts and in their luxury cars and the even the social circles they hang out with they don't hang out with ordinary people they can hang out with other elite people who are just like them they create this bubble from which they're isolated from pain suffering um and they think that by doing this they're growing themselves and they're self-actualizing actually they're not they're fooling themselves because this person is very actually easy to penetrate their bubble very easy their world is a house of cards and it can collapse very quickly and then their whole life becomes about maintaining that house of cards see every day they're working 60 hours a week just to maintain all their yachts and their golf courses and their luxury cars they're spending more time maintaining that [ __ ] than they did acquiring it and their life is unsatisfying there's no satisfaction of that kind of life why is that there's actually a very deep metaphysical reason for why because the only thing that will satisfy the soul or spirit or the god within you that you are the only thing that's going to truly satisfy you is to actually make yourself more godlike which means to expand your capacity to love truly not to cherry-pick stuff the more you start to cherry-pick life because of the wealth and power you have and the fame you have fame power and wealth allows you to cherry-pick everything you can cherry-pick your sexual partners you can cherry-pick even your children you can go to africa and adopt the perfect child that you want if you have enough wealth you could buy them a visa and a green card and a citizenship it allows you to cherry-pick your employees it allows you to cherry pick your friends the cars you drive the food you eat the air you breathe the places you take vacations at where you live you cherry pick absolutely everything about your life and then you're still miserable why is that because this little very narrow version of of of perfection that you imagined is so [ __ ] narrow compared to infinite consciousness that the spirit within you which is intuiting the possibility infinite consciousness it can't tolerate that it's too narrow it's too small you're thinking too small when you're chasing billions of dollars and when you're buying a 100 million dollar mega yacht what i'm telling you is you're thinking too small but not in the way you think you see it's not too small at the level of dollar signs dollar signs are not the measure of the bigness of your thinking and when i'm telling you that you're having sex too small for example i'm not saying that having sex with 100 people isn't enough you need to have sex with 200 people no that's never gonna solve it you can have sex with a thousand people it's not gonna you're still thinking too small when you're having sex with a thousand people that's the fundamental problem in your life is that everything you're doing is coming from a place of thinking too small you've mistaken human notions of value with true scale of consciousness the true measure is your is your degree of consciousness that's the true measure not dollar signs not how many people you have sex with not how many houses you have not how many cars you drive not how many trophies you've won not how big your business is these are all false metrics the only thing that will make you happy is becoming more godlike and the reason that is because you're god you're god and deep down you know you're god and you won't settle for anything less nothing less will make you happy and only when you finally realize that you're god only then will you understand why you weren't happy with anything else the cars the money the food the travel the vacations the houses the women the children how could any of it have made you happy you will realize how [ __ ] stupid you were for thinking those things would make you happy how could they how could anything finite make you happy so one practical way for you to become more godlike is to practice forgiveness because if you can't forgive the ignorance and unconsciousness of others and also of your own self you're not very godlike and if you want a guided way of doing that i have an episode called how to forgive anyone who's ever hurt you it's a guided exercise a visualization exercise and i explained some theory there as well about forgiveness which helps you to do that it's very powerful forgiveness is very very powerful and then of course the greater the evil you can forgive the more godlike you are so let me ask you this on a scale of 1 to 10 10 being the highest godlike how strong is your capacity for forgiveness be honest so 10 would be you completely forgive everyone for everything and you completely understand the ignorance and unconscious of others that means if somebody kills your child you will completely understand and you will not hold any grudges or resentments that would be a 10. so by practicing that forgiveness exercise in that other video that i talked about you can raise that score and then through other spiritual work you can also raise that score don't think that it's easy to raise this score this this score can be raised at a sort of psychological level which is nice um but ultimately to to bring that score to a 10 you can't get to a 10 on that score on that scale rather um through psychological trickery alone that would require actually changing your state of consciousness you need to actually access god consciousness to do that and you would need to maintain that consciousness in order to to really maintain that ten be careful here i'm not trying to put unrealistic expectations on you see part of what it means to have compassion and forgiveness for others is realizing their limitations so i know you're a finite human i'm a finite human too uh in a certain sense and so because of that you don't want us like now guilt yourself over not being a 10 on this scale this is going to be counterproductive you don't got to be perfect and in fact it's actually literally impossible for you to be at a 10 as long as you're a human but what you can do is you can begin the process of increasing your capacity for forgiveness like if you're at a two right now you could you could certainly move up to a three to a four just by doing the exercises in that video i talked about how to forgive anyone who's ever hurt you that's a title search for it um and that would significantly increase the quality of your life that is what's actually going to make you happier not the chasing of the money and the sex and the houses and stuff this is the real work towards becoming more happy and then if you continue doing other practices yoga meditation self-inquiry contemplation visualizations psychedelics and many other techniques that i've talked about many times in the past throughout all my videos that will slowly increase your capacity for forgiveness and for love really forgiveness is nothing other than love and it's nothing other than just understanding ignorance and understanding unconsciousness than just surrendering to it and and accepting it and really it's nothing other than understanding and accepting yourself all these things are ultimately synonymous so i hope that this this helps you connect some dots in your mind i hope this this explains some of the logic behind how god works so that's that but i need to issue an important disclaimer here everything i talked about in this episode came from my own personal experiences and direct consciousness it's not something i sat down and made up one day it's not something i read in the bible or from any spiritual school or book it's not something i've heard other humans tell me and i have adopted as a belief the things i'm saying are too radical to believe they're literally unbelievable they're incredible it's taken me some years just to integrate these experiences the reason i'm talking about them is not so that you adopt this as a dogma and you walk around telling people that god will forgive all your sins that this helps nobody this doesn't help other people and it certainly won't help to increase the quality of your life to adopt this as a belief the reason i'm sharing this is because i am like i feel like i'm an explorer who went into the amazon jungle hacked through it with a machete and as i was doing that i discovered some amazing things i discovered amazing rare birds and insects and monkeys and cool creatures and cool plant life and even you know remote villagers that i've never even contacted you like i've experienced all this amazing rare stuff that few have experienced and then i come back from the jungle and i tell you some stories about it the purpose of me telling you the stories is not for you to then get lost in the stories and then to tell your friends about my stories the purpose is simply to present you with new possibilities and opportunities for what you can also do in your life that's the purpose of everything i talk about i'm painfully aware of the limited nature of language and sharing stories and especially sharing mystical experiences and infinite states of conscience these things literally cannot be shared they're ineffable they're incommunicable so then why do i spend thousands of hours talking about it simply because very few in our culture talk about it they don't talk about these possibilities in school they don't talk about these possibilities at the workplace that you work they don't talk about it on tv they don't talk about it on facebook they don't talk about it on youtube ads they don't talk about it in most of the youtube videos you watch they don't talk about it in most of the books you read or the magazines or at the movies your friends don't know about it your parents don't know about it even your therapist and your preacher doesn't know about it so my function is simply to present these possibilities to you you can go to the amazon you can hack through that jungle and you can see some amazing stuff and it'll change who you are but it'll only change who you are if you go and do it it won't change who you are if you just listen to my stories and you believe them and it won't change who you are just by reading a book about it i could write a book about all my crazy experiences and it would change nothing for you other than maybe inspiring you to do it yourself and that's really the goal here the goal is twofold first of all it's to just open your mind to these possibilities these are very radical possibilities and if they're not properly explained what happens is your mind doesn't even recognize that it's a possibility like you could go to a catholic church and they will preach to you about god and about heaven and all sorts of angels and beautiful things and they'll talk about mystical experiences they've had but your mind won't register this as a real possibility the communication has to meet you where you're at such that your mind registers like oh maybe i could do this for myself so that's the first function of these talks the second function of these talks is to inspire you to do it with some charisma and charm you know i'm sexing this stuff up some of this stuff i'm exaggerating or i'm playing it up i'm kind of dramatizing it for the benefit of you getting inspired now actually there's sort of a there's a trick here i say i'm exaggerating and dramatizing some of this stuff i am but actually what i'm doing is i'm underselling it it might seem like i'm overselling it and i just said that i'm dramatizing and exaggerating sometimes but truly i'm underselling how amazing this is no amount of words can overstate how amazing infinite consciousness is or infinite love or the realization that you are god or infinite forgiveness so the reason i sometimes exaggerate and dramatize stuff is because part of my job is not just to tell you the truth it's to market the truth to you it's to get you to realize like holy [ __ ] this is important it's to interrupt the petty small thinking that the majority of your life is somehow i have to cut through that [ __ ] through all of the programming of culture society of your friends of your family and of your own ego mind all of the all this nonsense we have to somehow cut through that so because of that i feel entitled sometimes to exaggerate or to dramatize stuff um because i know that if you actually realize some of these experiences that i've had and have them for yourself you will be so blown away by it but that you will realize like that i undersold it it's impossible to oversell infinity um so that's kind of just understand that's kind of where i'm coming from and so anyways the point here being that um it's to show you the possibilities to inspire you to actually do it and then maybe there's a third function here which is to actually give you some techniques if you're a consistent viewer and follower of my content you know i've shared a lot of techniques with you i've given you a lot of theory but i've also laid out all the techniques the problem is you don't want to use them the problem is you're still thinking that you can just kind of skate by without the techniques you still hope that if you just watch enough my videos that that'll be good enough well it won't just because you know of the possibility of going to the amazon just because you're inspired to go to the amazon for yourself and just because you have the boat and the airplane and the machete and the food supplies and the tent and the sleeping bag and you bought all that equipment just because you've done all those things does not mean you're actually going to go to the amazon and do it that is the thing that really matters is you doing it and there's nothing i can say that will get you to do it as long as all these other things have already been said that's on you it's on you how much do you want out of life like i said before life works in a beautiful way where you will get what you put into it if you're not actually willing to go to the amazon you're gonna miss out on like 95 percent of what there is to know about the amazon so what that tells me that you're not really a serious explorer likewise if you're not actually willing to do the practices if you're not willing to do some yoga some self-inquiry some meditation retreats some solo retreats some um you know psychedelics um other kind of practices i've talked about some shamanic breathing for example if you're not willing to do these practices and you're not going to do them seriously then you're not a serious explorer of consciousness and you're really not serious about life you're not serious about being human you're not serious about getting the most out of existence and so my biggest function here is really just to hammer you in every episode i gotta just hammer you and hammer you and hammer you over the head of how much you are not well let's put it this way how much you're leaving how much you're leaving on the cutting room floor with the way that you're living your life there's so much amazing stuff that you're missing but you can't get it in an easy way there's a trade-off the more amazing a thing is that you're missing the more work emotional labor you're gonna have to expend to actualize that thing that's when your life really starts to go downhill is when you stop taking it seriously when you get complacent and lazy and you just want to coast through life and you stop wanting to expand your consciousness that's the biggest danger these days because people people get so easily complacent we have so much amazing media entertainment i mean you could spend the rest of your life on youtube watching funny videos or comedy specials or movies or netflix or porn or music or sitcoms tv shows playing video games you could spend the rest of your life doing this this is the greatest danger is 10 years go go by and you've wasted all of it just doing those things then 20 years go by 30 years go by then but by that point it's too painful for you to turn around and to get serious about life because you've already wasted so much of it for you now to get serious you have to admit to yourself how much you've wasted that's going to be very very difficult the longer you wait the more difficult it's going to be life is meant to be lived on the edge where you are challenging yourself you don't allow yourself to get complacent or too lazy or too comfortable pushing yourself expanding yourself in the right ways not falling into that trap of of chasing wealth and luxury but there's only so much i can say the rest really is up to you the question is are you going to do it and it's going to be difficult to do and the reason i got to oversell this journey is because if you don't have a very compelling vision of why you're doing it you're never gonna persevere past all of the grind and challenge and obstacles and the mundaneness of just sitting down and meditating or doing yoga for an hour every day for years and years and years you know that's tedious stuff you're not going to go through the tedium of it especially because all of your friends aren't doing it all of your family members are going to drag you down tell you to stop doing it your culture and society will lure you away with with promises of easy pleasure and wealth and luxury and get-rich-quick schemes you see and so it's just so so easy to lure you away to seduce you from truly living a self-actualizing life um and so part of my job here is to keep you on track with that to keep reminding you of what life is really about and um pointing out the traps and the distractions that's another maybe fourth function of what i do here see i present you with possibilities i inspire you to do it for yourself i share techniques with you for how to do it and then lastly i share all of the traps and dangers and ways you can [ __ ] it up and there's hundreds of ways that you can [ __ ] it up and by becoming aware of all the ways you can [ __ ] it up that helps you to avoid all the landmines as you're walking down the minefield mind field not mine field mind field you are in a mind field and this mind field is filled with mind traps which is why we talk about epistemology so much we talk about self-deception we talk about self-bias and all the other ways that your mind fools you all right that's it i'm done here please click that like button for me and come check out actualize.org that's my website on there you will find some free and some paid resources that can help you along on this journey um you can find my book list which presents you with the most important pieces of theory that you will need to guide you in your practices also shares a lot of techniques and methods and practices in those books you will find my life purpose course which will help you to align your life with your top values and get you a sense of purpose and direction which is actually crucial for having motivation the life purpose course really i could have called it the how to get yourself motivated for a lifetime course it it gives you the foundation for a lifetime of motivation intrinsic motivation and without motivation you're never going to be successful in anything that you do motivation is crucial inspiration is crucial inspiration is literally in spirited to be inspired to be filled with spirit which is what the source of this whole episode was remember i started off telling you that i was inspired literally i was filled with spirits and then that manifested itself as this conversation here today this is not leo coming up with this [ __ ] this is the universe speaking through some sort of meat vehicle this is spirit speaking to spirit you'll also find my blog with exclusive content that i share lots of free juicy stuff on my blog check it out i share a lot of documentaries interesting stuff that i find on youtube and elsewhere on the internet sort of higher conscious healthy type of stuff that expands your perspective if you'd like you can support me at patreon.com actualize with some donations you can check out my second channel called actualizedclips which features short little segments of my main videos in case you don't have the patience to sit through a two-hour three-hour talk and that is that i want to end with some final point your life will change the moment that you have some direct consciousness and experiences of these advanced things that i'm talking about it's crucial that you understand that what i'm talking about is not just some armchair philosophy that i came up with as i was sitting around smoking some weed this is stuff you can experience for yourself not only can you but you must if you're gonna follow along with me if you only keep what i talk about at an intellectual level and you never validate it through direct mystical experience of your own these teachings can become very counterproductive they can make you feel miserable and depressed they can ultimately even make you suicidal because what's going happen is that you're gonna have so many advanced and amazing ideas in your mind and then but then in your normal life when you wake up in the morning you're gonna wake up and it's gonna be like well this is just my boring shitty life and there's going to be a huge disconnect between the theory you learned from me about how beautiful and loving life is and then your shitty life you got to bridge this gap somehow now it's okay if you're just beginning with my content you can spend six twelve months just just learning theory it's important just to learn theory 12 months of learning theory is not bad you spent 12 years in school just learning theory right 12 months of theory is nothing all all good and fine but then after one or two years at some point you got to say okay enough of the theory i gotta somehow bridge the gap between the theory and my life what do i gotta do to actually start to experience some of these things happening in my life and if you if you don't do that i'm telling you it's not going to be healthy it's going to become dysfunctional that's one of the traps i've warned you about this trap in the past many times i've warned you about this trap but i gotta keep warning you about this trap and i think a lot of people don't realize how how serious this trap can get i myself have suffered from this one of the reasons i suffer from it is because look um one of the biggest straps for me is that i do this professionally i get paid for this this is sort of my career and my life purpose but that's still not enough for me to be happy and that's still not enough for me to actualize the things i talk about it's a lot easier to talk about the things i talk about than to actually do them i hope you understand this i hope you understand that i talk a lot about a lot of stuff that doesn't mean i've actualized all of it you might then wonder well leo then you're a hypocrite and why are you talking about stuff you haven't actualized well because if i only limited my talks to the things that i fully actualized myself and mastered this would actually be imposing a limit upon you i don't want to impose my personal limits upon you i want to show you the full range of what's possible with a human life you're going to only actualize maybe 10 of what i say and that itself will be life transforming for you right i'm not expecting you to actualize 100 of it i'm not expecting myself to actually have 100 of it but i'm not going to limit myself to that because there would be such huge gaps in your understanding of reality if you only limited the things you could think and talk about to the things that you fully mastered there has to be a sort of a bootstrapping process where you're thinking about this stuff you're contemplating it you're you're making mistakes you're misunderstanding some stuff you're getting trash you know trapped in some epistemic you know problems but then you correct as you keep going this is a sort of it is a bit of a fake it till you make it process you learn the theory you get excited by the theory it motivates you have you actualized it yet no you're just you're you're inspired by it you're working towards it it might take you 10 years to actualize some of it and that's fine how else could it be you can't begin this journey and not make any mistakes you can't begin this journey and be all perfect you can't be begin this journey and already be done if you were already done we wouldn't be talking about it if i was done with my work i wouldn't need to be talking about it with you because i would even transcend the need to talk about it with you talking about it with you is also part of my process it's got pros and cons some of the pros are that i get to talk this stuff out i get to understand it very deeply the more you teach something and the deeper you teach it the deeper you start to understand it yourself look that's the pros of it the the cons of it is that i actually do suffer a lot from getting trapped in the conceptualization of these things in a certain sense i would be able to grow faster if i didn't have to teach this stuff because i could just focus on doing my spiritual practices and other development work not talk about it with anybody in a certain sense there's that's powerful that's powerful um i do have to overthink these things so that i could teach it and the teaching of it is not the same thing as actually embodying it these are two different things there can be people in the world who are amazing at embodying something just amazing but they're not good at teaching it and moreover they're not good at marketing it they're even worse at marketing it and they're even worse at inspiring and motivating you to do it these are all different skill sets so be very clear that my embodiment is very weak compared to my abilities to communicate these ideas i have a special gift and talent for communicating these ideas somehow my brain my mind is wired for it it comes to me naturally spontaneously intuitively i get inspired to do this to communicate these things i'm inspired just by the act of communicating these ideas but understand that that's different from embodying them and so for me one of the greatest struggles is that my ability to inspire you and to communicate to you about these ideas and even to communicate them to myself for me that that's much easier i have a much higher talent for that than for actually embodying these ideas now of course that doesn't mean i don't work at it and in fact lately i've been i've been doubling my efforts at embodying these ideas because sometimes i get to a point where it's like i've talked so much about this [ __ ] and now i realize just that you know the gap between what i've talked about and what i'm actually actualizing is getting too wide i have to i have to work more on actualizing it and so that is definitely something i struggle with and i know you guys yourself struggle with it too and that's just part of this work it's just part of this work this work is going to be very messy and dirty in practice it's not going to be this simple clear-cut linear path like oh today i learned about enlightenment tomorrow i go to meditation retreat i meditate a few times then i become enlightened and it's all done it's all over it it's going to be way more dirty and hairy than that you're going to have backsliding and ego backlashes and confusions you're going to you're going to jump between different spiritual schools and different techniques and different paths and you're going to listen to this teacher then that teacher then you're going to quit spirituality for a year then you're going to come back to it and do it hardcore for a year then you're going to quit it again then you're going to come back and do some other thing and it's going to be all over the place you're going to be doing your business or your life purpose and then spirituality on the side then you're going to flip that around and do it the other way and you're going to have relationship things and then you're going to have money problems and it that's the thing here is that it's so messy and it's going to be uniquely messy for you your mess is going to be uniquely yours my mess is uniquely mine you're going to have health problems arise you're going to have money problems arise you're going to have relationship problems arise you're gonna have spiritual crises arise you're gonna have moments where you're depressed and miserable and you're doubtful that any of this stuff is even possible or that it's real or that it works or that it's gonna work for you and you got to keep going you got to keep going and going and going persevering past all these obstacles so the obstacles are all guaranteed the mistakes are all guaranteed you're going to be making them it's just a question of the quantity and severity of them and whether you learn your lessons from these mistakes so making mistakes is not the problem the problem is when your mistakes are either catastrophic or they just they they [ __ ] your motivation they get you to quit that's that's the real problem or when you keep making the same mistake over and over and over again for decades that's also a problem because your time is finite it's short you gotta use your time effectively here you only have so many decades and the decades as you get older they pass faster keep that in mind all right so that's enough i've given you plenty of warnings and disclosures here disclaimers here rather [Music] so now you sort of understand the realities of this work and of course stay tuned for more you